Everything changes

Finally bought more portable stuff from apple... And find that it really changes the way I do things. Like their marketing says it would. Ok I believe them now.

Too many things have changed. Even my body anatomy has changed slightly with the removal of a supposedly redundant organ... What I'm most worried is that there may be an underlying cause to all the digestive troubles I've been having the past couple of years and it may lead to the deterioration of other organs and it might be too late when the real cause is determined ...

Anyway midnight is not a good time to blog when work is early the following day..

Things in progress

Piano
- Beethoven Op 2 No 1 (dip ab piece)
- JOC Piece from Vol 2: Spring Song (the least boring of all but super oozing with sweetness)
- Bach WTC 1: C# major (not the minor which has a 5-voice fugue... gave that up)

Violin
- Bach BWV 1015: Presto (getting there!)
- Borowski Adoration (sounds bad)
- Potstock Sounvenir de Sarasate (just started, LH pizzicato sounds bad)
- Scales (yes, all over again)
- Arpeggios (my worst)
- Kayser studies

Books
- "In god we doubt - confessions of a failed atheist" (sounds cute) by john humphry's.  not sure if i can finish it
- "Inventing Memory" (just finished) by anne harris: quite entertaining.  abt the search for ancient matriarchies in a virtual simulation world.  i thought there was something wrong with the logic of programming a game without the actual answer to the question, then playing the game trying to find the answer.  some nice passages but many abrupt parts and some ideas about feminism kept repeating themselves.  what i liked about this book was the sumerian mythology part and how many parallels could be drawn between that and semitic religion.
- some piano pedagogy book by max campbell (can't remember the title coz i'm halfway thru and haven't touched it for some months)
- 2 others

Others
- piecing together the notes from the seminars i went to and trying to form lesson plans
- preparing for the new classes through observation of the girl i'm taking over, preparing my own kb charts, accompaniments to imitation singing pieces, and generally jumping into it
- almost forgot, i'm in the middle of preparing to get a driving licence

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random thoughts abt 2008 events and recent developments

this shld be read like the film, 'memento'

enough said on this matter. it is important to keep relations, but not at the expense of ur own happiness. tt wld defeat the whole purpose 5 minutes ago via Gwibber

it's just a matter of acceptance. i can accept it too, provided i know the other party isn't taking advantage. 7 minutes ago via Gwibber

actually, i dun hv to look so far to see such families. some ppl live like tt in msia too, esp. in the kampung 9 minutes ago via Gwibber

outlook of these 2 grps very different. mother-in-law can put up with alot of impromptu visits frm very distant relatives 10 minutes ago via Gwibber

piano tchr and my dad - same age, capitalist background. mother-in-law: younger, reformed capitalist, worked hard to prove tt to gain stats 13 minutes ago via Gwibber

tt includes violin tchr. other ppl, not so. piano tchr said she asks her siblings to stay in hotels too when they visit 14 minutes ago via Gwibber

throughout the 08 ordeal, i found tt the sichuan ppl think it is bad of me not to let her stay. half a year is a short time to them 15 minutes ago via Gwibber

since i know they would do nothing to take advantage of the situation 17 minutes ago via Gwibber

anyway, the husb does business in northern china and russia and is fluent in the northern languages. man with big heart. i do welcome them 17 minutes ago via Gwibber

they must hv heard about 2008 since they quickly said they'd stay in hotel. i like tt couple, wld hv invited them to stay to spite tt woman 19 minutes ago via Gwibber

she also tried to offer my place to her fren's daughter and family coz they want to visit southeast asia. 19 minutes ago via Gwibber

it is like some rude farce against free will frm the ones who dun believe in it. mil approved of it. 20 minutes ago via Gwibber

this is why i say they don't understand what privacy means. they have an adv in which rats and flies also cry out for their rights to live 21 minutes ago via Gwibber

they advice me to accept and embrace the idea of having her in my house then i won't suffer so much. this is what i cannot stand about them 22 minutes ago via Gwibber

what i said abt her 2 yrs ago still stands. and she has proven them true by trying stg this yr. 23 minutes ago via Gwibber

i like my tweets. if i dun die of something weird or mysterious 10 yrs later, i will take another look at what i said about her today. 24 minutes ago via Gwibber

so, i just need to take care of my kid for 7 yrs. i have enough energy for that. even my mum has. 25 minutes ago via Gwibber

my brothers grew up in boarding schools. the 3rd one turned out vry well. i think they were sent out at 7 26 minutes ago via Gwibber

girl i will send to boarding school too. who says u shouldn't hv kids when u get too old coz u dun hve the energy to deal with them 29 minutes ago via Gwibber

i dunno. i will just send my son to boarding school when he's old enough, if i really do have one. dun think much of boys who stick to mum 30 minutes ago via Gwibber

i think this boy has a good strong mind. i think he will be unstoppable when he starts rebelling. so much for her smugness 32 minutes ago via Gwibber

ok, some kids r just weird at the doctors'. it's just weird coz the mother in law is a doctor but the kid is afraid of doctors 33 minutes ago via Gwibber

in everyway, she reminds me of mrs coulter. i can't stop calling her that after all these years 34 minutes ago via Gwibber

i think u need more than that to communicate with a real life teenager who is ur own son. other ppl's sons r different 34 minutes ago via Gwibber

he's 3. she can't get him to drink water, behave properly at the doctor's, eat vegetables. she knows how to stop him frm crying by talk. 36 minutes ago via Gwibber

i kept quiet. no pt arguing with her. wait till her son gets to the rebellious age. she thks she has him under ttl ctrl, but i think not 37 minutes ago via Gwibber

i went to his defence and said he seemed ok by sgp standards. she said, then sgp has low standards of proper behaviour 38 minutes ago via Gwibber

there was a pt when she talked abt a teenage family fren of the in-laws being unruly. she hasn't seen him since 03, i talked to him this yr 38 minutes ago via Gwibber

i know some ppl r oblivious to the meaning behind wat she said. she was targeting me 40 minutes ago via Gwibber

i'm not accusing her. she said it herself. frm tt point onwards i stopped talking to her during dinner 40 minutes ago via Gwibber

she used her son to bait the parents-in-law. then talked them into coming to sgp when they had no plans at all. 43 minutes ago via Gwibber

this woman was so proud of her ability to get them to come along together for the chc thing. said how natural the whole thing was 44 minutes ago via Gwibber

they backed out. father-in-law said he got health problem and asked abt my piano exam. very subtle way of communicating, but i appreciate 44 minutes ago via Gwibber

whoever the deity of langkawi is, i m going to revisit and send my deepest regards. i didn't know the parents brought passports to shanghai about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

tt woman talked parents-in-law into coming to sgp this yr without giving any notice. langkawi saved me frm alot of trouble about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

being neutral is not just standing and doing nothing. it is seeing how all the threads are connected, and trying not to get in the way about 1 hour ago via web

the nice thing about her is that she knows how to take a neutral stand. about 1 hour ago via web

tt was when she was saying tt everybody in their family didn't like their weird 5th brother. about 1 hour ago via web

i remember what i told mother-in-law this cny, that the ones who dare to be bad are the ones who can bring progress. about 1 hour ago via web

if we were all in china, i will have no chance. u will be running my household for me. but, things r not like that dear about 1 hour ago via web

we all know about u and ur canada coz this family likes to share all info. i keep secrets coz i dun like sharing info with everybody about 1 hour ago via web

mother-in-law the matriarch sees all these i guess. but she likes conformity and group think. me being out of line puts me at disadvantage about 1 hour ago via web

why r we the ones suffering for the choices u made, like the one u made to feed ur feverish toddler coca cola? about 1 hour ago via web

when u chose to turn back, u should have expected this. so why come and bother us for something 2nd best? about 1 hour ago via web

we know how badly u wanted canada n how sad u were tt it seems impossible now since he didn't want it about 1 hour ago via web

stg happened, n u were thr for him. u wanted canada, but y did u turn back last minute? about 1 hour ago via web

i really dunno abt u. if u were such a saint, how come u got nobody when u met him in france? he went thr to chase after someone else about 1 hour ago via web

i heard the complaint tt i m being paranoid and treating everybody as my enemy. since i m paranoid, this statement has no effect on me. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

i know u won't get what u want. but letting u hv false hopes means i hv to be uncomfortable and put up with ur irritations. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

ica in recent yrs no longer grant pr renewal to prc who get their frens' companies to credit their cpf accts to appear locally employed about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

now tt sgp is officially gg to limit migrants n ur chc is not so credible anymore, it won't be easy. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

if i walk out of this family, this place is no more. evrythng is reset to zero. u still need to stand on ur own if u wish to migrate here about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

let's hope it will never be necessary. it will hurt alot of ppl in the process. and u still won't get what u want. i told u tt time about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

i dun want to live my whole life guarding against u. unlike u, i can throw away everything i hv. just tt i dun think it's necessary now about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

this is what i really think of u still. i will be civil to u, provided u dun do a remake of 2008 again. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

and the old cliche from parents-in-law, 'i only hv 2 sons, i want to see my daughter in laws get along'. no, this is singapore, not china about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

u r trying to make use of the guy's brotherly love and ur religion to get what u want, u despicable woman. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

we both know how soft the guys r, they won't make tough stands. so it's just u against me. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

ok, now i think i shld at least plead with u to find a proper religion to believe in and stop getting into my hair. not tt i hv alot of it about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

maybe, the fact tt ur church is being investigated will change everything in my favour. maybe not, business will still be as usual for u about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

i'm not thinking too far ahead coz i'm thinking of how to deal with this obstacle. about 1 hour ago via Gwibber

i dunno, maybe i'll just plan for snake year. snakes are smarter than rabbits generally about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

hear ye. this is why our plans keep getting delayed year after year. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

and i know i have one year to prepare for the next attack in the most civilized way. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i need time to adjust to my role of being in this family. but my plans have never and will never ever include u about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

oh ya i havent opened the bday card u gave me 2 yrs ago too. never have, never will. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i havent used anything u hv given me. the wallet and blouse i gave away. i havent opened the hermes scarf. will be returned if needed. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i m glad i returned tt titus watch. my piano tchr said i was rude and offensive, but, i didn't want my stand to be mistaken. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

anyway, i m glad i made that call and spoke to ur husb and his parents. so tt they knew my stand, even if they didn't like it. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i dunno why it's just my natural ability to see thru masks of ppl just like u. coz ppl like u make my skin crawl. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

this year, langkawi saved me. or rather, expiring krisflyer miles. i feel lucky, despite this being my fan4 tai4 shui4 year. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i m making my plans known first. just in case someone doesn't understand or forgot to communicate what i want again about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

since u r using parents-in-laws against me, i have to bring my parents in. against u. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

if u hv high fever with baby like this time, u hv to move out. we have bills to pay, we can't be quarantined because of ur stupidity about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i dun think i am overreacting, since u actually took time to talk parents-in-law into this. i will be very nice to my parents-in-law. only. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

maybe my dad will visit too. he said he will only intervene if ppl r interfering with my life. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

there is the sofa, and one extra mattress. take ur pick. if it's just a short stay, it doesn't matter. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

i'm afraid i hv no room for more. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

my mum will be here. all parents will stay in my guest rooms. my mum will take the small one and in-laws will hv the honour of bigger one about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

she managed to get them to say they will come over next year. i have my answer prepared if she is also coming over with them. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

so she probably labeled me selfish and evil and dragged all the parents-in-law in to fight for her right to stay here. about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

tt woman really got on my nerves once when she said wat she was 'suffering' was god's test for her when it was just me wanting her to mv out about 2 hours ago via Gwibber

Feb/Mar 2010 Practical Results

D - 0
M - 8 (4 grd 5s, 3 grd 2, 1 grd 3)
P - 4

one i thought would fail due to lack of practice (grd 7, 12-yr-old boy) actually passed. i'm so relieved.

the boy who failed his grd 5 violin exam last year and went to this year's violin exam in sandals and bermudas actually got merit for his grd 5 piano. i was relieved tt he did not go for his piano exam in sandals and it was above my expectations when he got merit.

a grd 2 boy who got merit was quite disappointed. me too. thought he played way better than some other students who got distinctions during the last season. ah well, different examiners, different yardsticks....

i'm glad most have passed. 3 more results to wait for....

(final update on 24 apr)

work in progress

bach - *bwv 861 & bwv 893
beethoven - *op 13 & op 31 no 2
mendelssohn - op 14
chopin - *op 50 no 3
szymanowski - op 4 no 3

*: haven't touched for 2 years